Climbing the wall to connect (Five Minute Friday)

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Connect...

GO!

Connect is a hard concept to swallow sometimes.  It is the human condition to desire to connect with one another, and yet our societal standards of "connection" do not always fill our human need.  I don't want to connect to just have another "friend" in my social circle in this small town full of circles.  I don't want to connect just to be "in" one of the "in groups".  I don't want to connect to play nice with other moms.

I want to connect and be ME.  Afterall, connection to someone when we are not ourselves isn't connection at all.  And it's not fulfilling for either party.  SO, how to climb over that wall to connect?

RISK.  Risk is not a good word for me.  I don't like risk, unless it is very calculated and a 99% sure thing that it will turn out the way I want it to.  What if she doesn't like me?  What if she thinks that my political stance and my theology are wrong?  What if she can't agree to disagree?  What if I never connect?  What if I never make true friends in this town?  How long can I survive superficiality in relationships without real connection?

STOP

Sometimes Five Minute Fridays have a way of revealing our fears.

Anyone reading this have any encouraging words or suggestions on how to climb over that wall?

Thanks for reading!

Beyond (Five Minute Friday)

Five Minute Friday, inspired by Lisa-Jo Baker.

Beyond...

Go!

Beyond my fear of inadequacy, beyond my hesitation, beyond a new blog, beyond a first blog post!  Beyond worry about perfection, beyond worry about house size, pant size, family size, serving size.  Beyond this little life and into the lives of others.  Beyond my own understanding, far beyond my own capacity to love.  Reaching beyond my shortness in patience, beyond my questions of how to be a better mom/wife/pastor's wife/daughter/friend.  Beyond my little frustrations with life.  Beyond my pettiness when I know I live a life beyond some other's dreams.  Beyond staying inside my head, beyond knowing what is best to say and when is best to say it.  Beyond not taking people for granted, but actually loving them here and now.  Beyond knowing the best "timing" and schedule for my own life.  Beyond knowing what's best for me and everyone around me.  Beyond my highest visions and dreams.  Beyond calling myself a follower of Christ and actually getting up and following.  Beyond five minutes!

Stop!

A blog is born...

I have no idea what I am doing here, I don't yet have a plan of what to blog or what my "theme" may be.  I have no idea who might might want to read anything I have to write.

I suppose my "theme" is life.  I will share.  I want to write.  I have been encouraged to start a blog because I would like to participate in Five minute Fridays because 5 minutes once a week seems not so overwhelming.

So here we go... let's start with an introduction.

I am a stay at home mom of one cute 2 1/2 year old boy.  I am not a perfect mom, but I am a perfectionist.  I am searching for ways to become less worried over my imperfect life, and realize that my life is what it is, and that it is beautiful just the way it is.  I am all the me there is going to be, at my best and at my worst, I am me.  I am searching for ways to share an authentic me without worrying over what others will think of me, but it is hard as a "pastor's wife" to find those boundaries.  Life is learning, and I am ready for the next lesson.  And I am grateful everyday for the grace of God, the love of my family, the encouragement of my husband.

So, thanks for letting me take up a little cyberspace for my thoughts...